May I please ask a prayer request?
Wednesday is my 4th chemo session. It is 4:00AM and I can't sleep. I am on steroids and I am apprehensive this time around. I never really felt fear about the chemo before-- I thought I could take it. But this time around, I am afraid of the side effects that will happen next week. The 3-9th days are the worst for me.
I've also heard that the 3rd and 4th chemo are very rough. I honestly thought that I was doing great and was pretty strong, easy peasy and all that... until I ended up in the hospital ER with uncontrollable twitches and irregular heart beats. I've also been weak, fatigues, and weepy. It's just been the last 2 days that I have felt "normal" or "okay." I haven't had any muscle twitches. Lately my stress level has been exceedingly high at work and home and this started a pain cascade. Also, I found out my new meds for nausea reduce my serotonin in my brain, so I'm sure this is causing the cries. It's always something!
My mom paid for a mind-body specialist to do a massage and it really helped today. The pain level has dropped from an 8 to a 2. Thanks MOM! From now on, I need to keep "healing" as priority Number 1.
Thank you for all of your positive thinking, visualizations, prayers, meditations, and clearings, etc!
Hi Jules
Hang in there lovey. You are a woman of incredible strength and positivity. You will prevail. You are always thought of and cared for. Don't ever forget that.
We love you. Hang in there and my prayers are going out to you.
Love,
Tanya
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I do forget, so thanks so much for the reminder!
Love you, too!
Julie
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Greetings from Pugwash Nova Scotia.
We have been here since the firest of July but we have been keeping touch with your progress since we can access emails from my brother's place. Our cabin is in the back and beyond with no amenities.
We are very much with you in spirit and you will be in our prayers.
Go with the flow and let the healing tide roll.
Love and Peace
Garth
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"Go with the flow and let the healing roll" What a nice mantra. Thanks!
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Hey Jules
I see you have found some hair to match your style. Excellent! Sorry to hear you are experiencing these ups and downs of chemo. I guess it is silly but I cannot really understand why human beings have to go through so much physical distress and pain. Neither religious types nor spirituals can help with this. It must so depressing at times. Hopefully everyone on this site can conspire together to ease your pain and speed your recovery cause we all truly care. Love Ya Kid! Brian
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Thanks, Brian, for your positive thoughts and desire to get me well as soon as possible. I like that the powerful force of you all can help. I hear you had a something happen to your own health lately. Email me about that, okay? I truly care, too.
Julie
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My challenges are nothing compared to yours. I am experiencing seizures and the medicos have yet to figure it out. Can't drive until they determine the problem. MRI and EEG ect show irregular brain activity ~ story of my life huh? Be well Jules!
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At least I know what the problem is and a treatment plan for it. Sorry you are experiencing health issues, too. I hope they find the problem and it is easy to correct. Hopefully it is making you grateful for things you may have taken for granted, like driving. I'm curious how I may have impacted you. Thanks for the compliment.
I'm glad I don't live in the South and we have good weather here today! I think I might actually get out of the house for the first time in 13 days!
Julie
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Hi, Julie.....Have been keeping an eye on your blogs since I figured out I could subscribe to them. Those steroids are something else. I also had massive doses after each chemo and sleep was just out of the question without Meds. Lots of mood swings, body aches, muscle spasms.......Drove my poor Mother insane. Bless her soul.
I had so many chemos that I can't remember much except the High Dose...
I understand about how you just about get back to some kind of 'normal' and you are zapped again...I used visualization and prayer in the chemo room. I would rev up my army and think the chemo was coming to get you, You BAD BAD cancerous cells.
AM keeping you in my prayers...You are a strong woman and will send you healing vibes from me to you~
Nita~
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It's nice to hear someone elses experience to see how similar it is. Thanks for the healing vibes and for watching my progress!
Bless you,
Julie
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Julie,
You are in my thoughts and prayers. I know you will make it through this. You are an incredible woman. I admire you immensely. You have always been there when I needed support even now. I am here for you. Remember to keep your focus on healing...you WILL be fine.
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Thanks, Stephanie, for your prayers and positive thoughts. I know you have had one of the roughest three days in your life just now, too. Remember what you told me... "SELF CARE", so take it easy as much as possible before school starts. In the meantime, think positive thoughts about how you passed and don't obsess over the questions and your answers. Just let it go until you know.
Take care,
Julie
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Hey Julie you look great and I LOVE YOUR NEW hair style...I might just get a cut like that...I LOVE IT!
You seem tire easy…but every time when I see you…your spirit always high with great attitude and high appreciation, you are a fighter. And Rick is so lovoing and great supporter, I am so proud of you two.
You two are ROCK!!!
LOVE YA!
And yes you are totally in my prayer. And I know PRAYER works.
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Hello, I am thinking about you and wishing you a fast and pain free recovery. I want to introduce you to a website called icyou.com. Here you will find thousands of videos from cancer survivors, some dealing with chemo currently, and others that have been through it already. I hope this helps you to stay strong - you can overcome this! Here is a link to the videos. http://www.icyou.com/topics/cancer-survivors
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Dear Julie,
I'm sorry to hear that your chemo sessions are getting more difficult. I'm thankful that you have Rick and your army of friends and family to support you in your journey back to good health. You're almost there! Keep the Faith!
I searched the web looking for prayers for healing that might help you get through your chemo sessions. I found one on Faith that I think is really good. Perhaps you could finish your sessions with it. Hope it helps. Love ya.
FAITH..
Faith is the bird that sings to the
dawn while it is still dark.
Because I believe in you, my God,
I will keep singing in the darkness of my life.
Though I cannot see it now, I believe the
dawn will come;
though I cannot find the right melody of joy,
I will sing a song of my trust in you.
And when I finally see the soft glow of a
new day coming,
I will know all the more that you are the God
who always keeps promises.
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