Today, I get to redo the PET Scan at the PCI center in Irvine.  Remember, the one I had in Newport didn't come out... the images never showed up?  So, due to that machine malfunction, I will be going to do it again and this time at a closer location.  My mom will take me.  The part I hate most is getting the IV.  They have such a difficult time getting a vein on me and they poke me several times!  Its very painful.  I'm the biggest baby when it comes to IVs and taking blood.  Of course, the other anxiety are getting the results.  Please keep praying that the scan finds no cancer anywhere else in my body.

With that in mind, I will be getting a Port put in on Wednesday morning at Hoag Hospital.  It will go in my chest and make it really easy for the oncologist to give me chemotherapy without sticking me with a needle every time.  I'm not thrilled that I need an operation, going under anesthesia and all for this port to be put in, but it  is supposed to be quick and easy and make my life a lot less painful overall, so I'm going for it. 

This week, even as I have a pretty good attitude and am generally happy, I have had a few emotional meltdowns.  They come on me when I least expect it.  I am all of a sudden consumed with tears and anxiety.  I feel really sad that I am putting Rick throughs so much stress, so when I see him get stressed out, I get stressed out, and then I cry, and then I worry my crying is stressing him out, so I cry some more!  AH!!!! STOP THE MADNESS!  he he he.  Luckily these crazy times are short-lived and I am resilient and come back to earth in a half hour or so.  I feel just like a little baby when I get upset and then I get back to normal. Rick is very soothing.



I remember reading that emotions can be right at the surface with people diagnosed with Cancer.  I remember my dad even saying he never cried so much as when he had cancer, so I guess it is just part of the process.  The tears do help me to let go of the sadness and then I feel better. 

Tuesday, I have an appointment for a physical therapist to help me with my arm range of motion.  I'll see how that goes.  I'll probably reschedule it for Thursday, since I still have the drain.

As I said, Wednesday I have the Port put in, and then Thursday afternoon, I wll have the appointment with the oncologogist to tell us what we are looking at for a chemotherapy and radiation treatment plan.